crash! bum!! bang!!!

a single e mail today send me off into a reminicing trip. millions of thought and memories going through my head while staticity surounds me. no perspectives for change, no perspectives for adventure and excitement await me in poland yet i'm here without a real good reason while i know what awaits me elsewhere. this was the reason i was looking sceptically at an erasmus year in prague. i didn't want to go cause finally, after those hard moments that followed leaving home and leaving vichy, i managed to hibernate half of myself and live as a partial me in this little world were NOTHING comes my way. where i'm just a shadow of a person to others because no body here is a friend. i stopped worrying about the fact that everyday looks like the one before. that year in prague could declench everything from the beggining. the year was amazing, like life should be, and like life was not taking into account the 3 years in poland. suprisingly the avalanche didn't directly start because of prague. all that prague did was reawake the other half, make me want again and make me sit down and write all those e mails i should have written years before to keep in touch with those people who have meant so much. todays e mail was an awakening that i needed and am very thankful for.